This life is playing with me, doesn’t it play with everybody? However, what is the gist for grief and joy to be a part of my life when I now wish that it should be neutrality to embrace me. My heart is fragile; it weeps when I am miserable and it doesn’t know how to confine the sorrow. It laughs when I am ecstatic not knowing how to cater for my bliss. Why is it that I am never contented? Is it just me or that’s normal for Earthlings?
I want a life where I can choose the outcome of my activities. I want to be a judge of my very own actions. Am I asking too much? Is it too much to ask for people to mind their own business and let me mind my own? Is it too much to ask of people to not watch me in a bizarre manner if my arms are linked with my best friend’s and my hair are dyed pink. I do not care what they think about me but when the ‘staring business’ happens frequently, it makes me curious of what beauty is confined in me that people are attracted to give more than a glimpse to an ordinary girl like me.
My mother once told me that I have to be ‘Myself’ no matter what other people think of me. Now, that I haven’t seen my mother in past six years; I wonder if her advice would be the same. Should I continue to be myself or should I start paying heed to the cold stares and judgmental looks around me? My mother watches down on me every night from the Heaven. I hope I make her proud.
I am fifteen years old. My life is shaking and I have passed the point of knowing what right to do in which right place in when right time. Regardless, I have learnt something: I am in a better condition than many people in this world. I have clothes to wear, food to eat and clean water to drink unlike people living in less privileged areas like parts of Africa. I will always complain about something not being right or as per my wish because that’s the part of my human nature but I can take the time to be grateful to Almighty for all that I have.
Before it’s too late, we have to stop this Human Hypocrisy. The truth is you may not be perfect but you are yourself. Be thankful for what you have and who you are.
Learn and Survive – life is all about learning and surviving.
A beautiful and brave story you crafted. A certain points it seems real. Well, it may be true for someone if not for you but the message is very clear.
Yeah, you may be right. Although, I really hope, if we need to make this world a better place, the only thing we can do is make ourselves better and everything will start to fall in place.
Thank you for your response.
I’m completely in agreement with that.
Be yourself and be careful of envious people. Be kind and thoughtful as you are. You are only in charge of you. You can’t change other people so don’t try it’s a waste of time.
I like how you said we are only in charge of ourselves. I hope people can understand that and start implementing that in their lives. I treasure your feedback. Thank you so much Kim for always reading my work.
I believe you should stick to the advice from your mom.
I think as long as people are themselves (without harm to others) all tends to go well.
Don’t worry too much about negative vibes & thoughts from people & how they may see you. As Kim said in her comment to you – lots of envious people in this world.
Stay true to you. And – yes – your mom is watching over you.
Nice to hear from you after so long. Firstly, the words in ‘italics’ are not my story but may be someone’s story. My mum is doing very well and I hope she continues to do well. (Amen)
Secondly, you are right. Being ourselves is all we can give to this world. We all have good in us but we abandon it to look ‘cool’ to some people and put up masks forgetting the real us! The message was just to inspire people that this world need no masks; we re one big happy family on this planet and families don’t judge; instead they love.
Thank you once again for your comment. It is greatly appreciated.
It began like you were telling you were telling your own story! As I came down, I got really confused at that point in which you stated that you’re apart from mom for the past six years. I was like… “What? Really? I know her family! And….?”. Hence I started reading it again from the beginning and went all through it without a break in between, although I was a lil confused at that…
A great reminder to everyone currently existing here, Naima. Being myself is the best thing I can do for myself; it’s all about myself and why should I change it for others? Thinking like this might create a uncertainty for someone while dealing with his/ her real life. But many are forgetting the fact that life is such a simple journey which has neither beginning nor ending actually. Since your birth till the death, it moves in the same flow with a lot of experiences and choices.Actually, what does matter while you’re dealing with it is how you feel like acting against it during every instance! Whether it’s an action or reaction, take it simply and go on…
Yeah, Neeraj said the same thing that he thought as if it was my personal story but you guys should have known; my hair are not dyed pink!! [Laughing-Out-Loud]
Well, on a serious note, you are right! Life is simple; its we, HUMANS, who complicate simple matters and make everything complex and sophisticated. All we have to do is, do this world a favor – be ourselves whether that be crazy or happy. This life is short then why not enjoy it than spending it in the thought of what would ‘THEY’ think if I did that!!
Thank you for your time to read my blog. I can not thank you enough. And, sorry I couldn’t attend your call on my birthday. I was at office but my heart goes out to you! Thank you very much for being you and for being a part of my cyber-world!!
Wonderful post 🙂
thanks for your continuous visits to mine 🙂
all the best to you Naima 🙂
Thank you so much for visiting and your blog is worth visiting and reading 🙂