So finally – my home is calling me. I am visiting my family after a very long nine months which I thought would never end. Earlier this year, I couldn’t go back in the summer break cause I was busy with an internship. Hence, I was looking forward to the winter break for a long time. However, my family is much more excited than me, my mother is a given but except of her, my sister is going insane with the count down.
I am happy and nervous at the same time. Returning home after so long does bring back all the emotions not just associated with my family but it also stirs the feeling of patriotism and love for my motherland. I am happy (not really excited but delighted) to go back home because I have missed my mother a lot. Also, this is the longest I have stayed away from home to the date. Anyhow, the flip side of the coin is that I am nervous. One thing that I am afraid of is that I am a changed person now. I cherish my personal freedom and value the peace in isolation. Going back home means all the hustle bustle, relatives and family gatherings. I have never been the social type anyway ( I am not shy but reserved – there is a difference!). Hence, now that I have been living on my own for almost three years – going back poses a threat on my personal freedom. I will have to be a part of family now while here in England, I can do whatever I want (as in I can wake, sleep and study whenever I want to; eat whatever I want – I can live like a night owl). At home, I have to go by a certain time table; not as in somebody dictating my life but more like a civilized approach to routine life which I don’t really care about in England. The second issue that concerns me is my temperament. I was never the calm person anyway and have always blamed my gene for this short temperament. However, now I ‘think’ it is worse. Anything can possibly trigger me off and I can lose it
( please don’t advise anger management – pretty please) but I think it’s one of the disadvantage of living on your own. The feeling of being independent and isolation leaves you a little confined and if somebody even tries to hop into your space, then you have ‘Watch Out’ written straight across your forehead. Although, it could be just me but I have heard people ranting about this more than often. So I can only hope that I don’t lose my temper and keep myself under good check and control. After all, it’s a party time for me — finally a break!!
Well, I have my flight in few hours and I hope Emirates is on time which is highly unlikely! Also, I apologize in advance for missing out on all the good stuff I get to read written by all you lovely people. See you guys soon in a different land with different experiences! Happy Holidays!!!!
Live, Love, Inspire & (don’t forget to)Smile. Believe in yourself and you can conquer all your fears.
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Hope you have a safe flight! Where are you flying to?
Thank you for your concern, Nadine. Pakistan is my home. Happy Holidays to you too!!
Safe journeys and have a wonderful Christmas Naima.
Thank you, Al. I wish you the same!!
Sounds like anxiety. Relax and enjoy your trip home.
Thank you Kim, that is what I intend on doing. Love and blessings to you.
I am glad that you are going to see your parents after a long time. Wasn’t aware of the summer internship but I presume its a side effect of growing professional responsibilities. Don’t worry, in time you will be able serve your country with the things you are learning there… Good luck 🙂
Thank you Tatsat; your comments always are a good dose of encouragement and optimism. I hope i can be good at what I do ..
You will be missed. All the luck and enjoy the break. Being a little irritated sometimes is normal. Even Jesus lost his cool sometime, I think. Blessings to you and yours.
Thank you for being so supportive, Cecelia. I missed reading but will resume soon.
Blessings to you too.
Blessings to you too.