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Diary of Nobody -VII-

“You are ‘the one’. I cannot ask for anything more from Him now that I have been blessed with you. Please don’t ever leave me because if you ever did, you will take my life away with you. I love you with all my heart and soul.”

I wonder where I went wrong.  From ‘You are my life’ to ‘I want nothing to do with you anymore’ – what happened in the gap between those statements? If my memory serves me right, I became only better with time. Apparently being ‘too nice’ can drive a man away (beware good-girls!). It was your guilt, wasn’t it? I was being the best you could ever have while you were only writing ‘The End’ to our story. Often you lost temper because of the same reason but how come you never asked me to stop being me if the guilt was eating you away? Can you tell me now who loved who ‘truly’ in our relationship?

Suffering and pain – there are no boundaries to confine the idea of what pain is. I believed that pain had a ‘breaking-point’ only to realize that there are no limits to pain (as far as personal-experimenting is concerned). It was more than a million times when I thought I couldn’t endure living another day but somehow always survived. It was more than a billion times when I almost gave up but somehow never quit. It was more than a trillion times when I thought to myself that sorrow would kill me but somehow it always ended with the revival of happy-times. I only became stronger and with time the pain had nothing on me. The same theory of ‘limitlessness’ applies to happiness too. We can never pass the threshold of suffering or happiness because as long as we are breathing, it is symbolic of life and there are no extremes known to the concept of life. Death can seal this but let’s not go there.

After an absolute random ranting about my perplexed philosophies, I want you to know that I might have suffered a lot because of you and might continue to (for God knows how long) but you only helped me nurture into a strong woman I am today. Thus, I can only be grateful to you babe. Thank you for scarring me. Thank you for the bruises. Thank you for the lies. Thank you for the damage. Thank you for leading me into the dark. If it was not for you then I would have never known the person I am today.

So let’s be free,
Let us see,
Where life takes us,
What we may end up to be,
But know something my love,
You have nothing on me,
Not anymore — not ever again.

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About globalunison

Writing is my passion and that is what I do here on this blog. I write about everything, whether it be Nature, Love, Hate, Relationships, Humans, Personal Life (where I discuss lessons learnt through real-life experiences), Food, Philosophy (sometimes) and much more. I write in any form whether it be Prose or Poetry. I am in search of ‘Myself’, hence there is not much I can tell you about me. Perhaps, I have a very brilliant idea. Why don’t you come along with me on my journey? I will always care to share and you can also enjoy the ride. For now, this is it. I am ‘ME’ – a wanderer in search of a fulfilling life. Until next time, Love Living Life! I express my sincere gratitude to all my Readers! -Naima

23 responses to “Diary of Nobody -VII-

  1. The Bibliophile Diaries ⋅

    It’s beautiful! I was just going through your blog and I realised what a beautiful writer you are! Keep it up! You must read my absolute latest piece! You’d like it 🙂

    • Thank you for reading — I saw a long list of likes so thank you very much for taking the time to read.
      I will certainly pay a visit to your blog.
      Kind Regards,
      -Naima

  2. I can completely relate to it. It’s true, although it gives us a lot of pain but we turn out to be a better and stronger person. Beautifully said.! 🙂 ♡

  3. I don’t think I could express to you how much I love and relate to this. My favorite part, “It was more than a million times when I thought I couldn’t endure living another day but somehow always survived. It was more than a billon times when I almost gave up but somehow never quit. It was more than a zillion times when I thought to myself that sorrow would kill me but somehow it always ended with the revival of happy-times.”
    I feel those words so deeply. Thank you for writing so beautifully.

  4. izza ifzaal ⋅

    The gaps and the miscommunications are the cause of diatribe but what hurts the most is your worth in the eyes of others! I don’t want to be all teary here but such things do make us stronger with time as our savior ,or healer!
    I am proud of you as what you have become today, a strong and inspiring person~ 🙂
    *hugs*

    • I know these things can be over-whelming and emotional but then writing about them is a way of getting them past your way. It’s a technique to not let them be a barrier in your way. Pain can completely destroy us and leave us with nothing but then if we only think about the negative then living will be much more brutal that it already is.
      Thank you for sharing your insight with me, Izza.
      Blessings,
      -Naima

  5. Sessela

    Hi Naima 🙂 I’ve nominated you to the Creative Bloggers Award 😀 Check out my newest post if you’d like to see it. As always your writing is beautiful 🙂

  6. barrira

    Painful and beautiful, wisely put.. nothing makes us stronger and braver than pain which comes wrapped in mask of beautiful deceit.
    Love
    B

  7. This blog was so very relatable and pain tries its best to drag us and tame us but if we don’t concede then we are truly the survivors and come out of it being more strong and better 🙂 Thank you for this great writing Naima!!

    • Pain can never tame us because time can heal it. Life is time and life is hope so a human will always be hopeful for the pain to end and time will take it away (if I made sense).
      Blessings,
      -Naima

      • Yes that’s true!! Time passes both good and bad. They come in our life to increase the importance of other. Pain comes so we will value happiness and once we got happiness we get scared and tensed that it will go away quickly without realizing that the time we invest in thinking about the end of happiness is wrong and should be invested in relishing the happiness sharing the happiness. And also one of my life’s mantra is DON’T BE SAD BECAUSE IT’S OVER, BE HAPPY BECAUSE IT HAPPENED 🙂 and yes what you just said made cent percent sense and a good poi t too. Appreciated!!

      • Your life mantra sounds very interesting and realistic. Thank you for sharing, Darshith :))
        Blessings,
        -Naima

      • Always welcome Naima 🙂 Great series of posts 😉

  8. I love this:

    “So let’s be free,
    Let us see,
    Where life takes us,
    What we may end up to be,
    But know something my love,
    You have nothing on me,
    Not anymore — not ever again.”

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