Day 9: What are your worst habits?

Over-thinking kills me! I feel like no matter what I do, I can’t stop it. Sometimes (may be mostly), it is the reason for my insomniac nights. It only brings depression and stress in my life and I hate to be the victim of this killer-habit (don’t even get me started with the hair-fall)!

Being selfless leaves me abandoned and broken. Once I know someone, I will only care to give and wouldn’t care to ask. This leads the other person to think that I am merely an aid for them and not a friend. May be, I haven’t been fortunate enough with my social-circle or may be there is something wrong with me.

I hate the fact that I am being called a ‘stone-hearted-person’ when I am not. I am a heart-breaker may be (for people out there). But my intention is just to not lead anybody on and make everything clear in the first place which makes the other person think that I am denying them and making them feel like a ‘Loser’. Being too straight-forward sucks at times and I do that all-the-time!

I don’t like to be expressive to my loved-ones if something about them is causing me pain or has been bothering me. I have this fear of hurting them back. This habit is quite irritating as sometimes it feels like I’ve had enough yet I go on to put up a charade and endure more than required/needed.

I leave everything for the eleventh hour. I think this will top the list!!

I am sure I have loads more but I can’t remember any for now so let’s call this ‘The End’ for this post, shall we?

Until we meet again, Live, Love, Inspire & (don’t forget to) Smile. Believe in yourself and you can conquer all your fears

BETRAYAL (Part II)

Seeing is not believing,
Believing is not feeling.

As I heard him declaring his departure

He shot an arrow as miraculously as an archer

Listening to his bizarre words, I was on my knees

Possessed no strength to hear, smell, touch or see

I watched him parting in the dark rainy night

Wishing a final goodbye with a vivid smile radiating light

I strolled home single-handedly weeping and crying

His words stuttered in my mind – my tears complying

My mum awaiting me at the home’s door

Disguising the ache, the veil of bliss that I wore

She asked me where was I?

I sighed and told her a lie

How can I tell her it was a lad?

Who deceived and took everything I had?

My numb body directing my senses to the way to my room

Thoughts ruled my mind and soul – this appalling doom

I cursed myself for being in love as a dope

There was no rainbow after this rain, no bliss and no hope

He left me for the sake he was done

Likewise, he is going to find another one

He is a traitor, a betrayer and a player

Thus ruled my heart for an eternity as a mayor

Depression and distress was now the food to my soul

I salute him for his significant triumph to attain his desired goal

One day when no one was in the house

I clasped a knife due to that louse

To Be Continued…

Betrayal – Part I