The drunken nights,
My red swollen eyes,
Crying and sobbing,
So I can finally sleep,
So I can finally dream,
The life which cannot be my reality,
The love which cannot belong to me,
The freedom to escape the sufferings of mortality,
The quest for my long-lost stability,
Ever since we’ve been apart,
You always seem to bring my heart,
The torment and torture of false-hope,
An everyday struggle with which I cannot cope,
So I am going to get high tonight,
It’s no longer required to put up a fight,
Lately I have been so numb to the pain,
It’s exciting to be alive again.
You build me up to break me down,
You tear me apart from the inside,
Left me in the raging flames of vengeance to drown,
You knew in your heart that you never tried,
To look beyond the horizon of self-pride,
How can you fail to see?
You cannot turn me into somebody you want me to be,
How can you not know?
I’m hurt but it is never going to show,
I’m too strong to be defeated,
Now that it’s all said and done,
I’ve never felt more completed,
So I am going to get high tonight,
It’s no longer required to put up a fight,
Lately I have been so numb to the pain,
It’s exciting to be alive again.
globalunison 
Powerful and painful ❤
You defined ‘love’ itself using two adjectives ❤
Thank you for reading, B!
-Naima
PS– I loved 'Dead Words'.
❤
This is very poignant Naima. Glad you’ll be getting high tonight. If anyone deserves it, you must. Such a treadmill to be on; love. Get off it sometimes, and realize that perhaps you already have it.
Lots of hugs and love.
Julie
P.S. Whoever that man is doing this to you, I’ll get Susie onto him; that’ll cure him!
That’s it: I don’t want to acknowledge the ‘love’ I already have because I am too busy chasing my definition of love.
Thank you for your comment, Julie ❤
-Naima
PS– your PS made me laugh (badly)! 😀
Oh dear!!! I could feel d pain u described..
May u get the love u were longing for …
Somethings are just to long for and others can be achieved. I learnt the art to numb my pain: that was my achievement.
Kind Regards,
-Naima
U are strong. But sometimes its good to keep expressing than suppressing…
Cheers
Sup
I agree one hundred percent!
-Naima
It’s beautifully written. What came to mind as I read it was, numb with passion.
I feel to change the title of the poem now to Numb with Passion: very interesting.
Thank you for your comment, Robert. It’s so very greatly appreciated.
Kind Regards,
-Naima
I can’t imagine being numb with passion. I am usually just in need of being plain numb. I have no real passion in my life – or shall I say the kind of passion one wants to feel numbed by.
I know what you mean: sometimes we all need that ‘plain numb’ to fill in the blank spaces.
Thank you for taking the time to read and comment, Kim 🙂
Kind Regards,
-Naima
You are welcome. I am trying to get caught up. It seems I never can…..:)
I know the feeling — I just never reach there!
-Naima
False-hope is just filled with torment and torture…well said.
False-hope is one of the worst things I have come across in my entire life — it sucks out the life from everything.
Thank you for the comment 🙂
-Naima
hayeeee! Top notch naima!
I enjoyed till the last bit 🙂
These feels I can relate :p
Aww, thank you Izza ❤
Your comments are always encouraging. I am happy to know that you can relate to it.
Blessings,
-Naima
yeah! me too 😛
You are encouraging as well ❤
Much love!xx
‘The life which can not be my reality’ is the thing which makes us to have a dream of it at least…which can reduce our pain a bit and make us smile even when we’re asleep. Its beautiful and painful too. 🙂
Dreams when shattered hurt the most but the good thing about it is that we can dream all over again.
Thank you for sharing your opinion. I value it highly. 🙂
Blessings,
-Naima
That’s all true.
You’re most welcome 🙂
Life sucks sometimes. All you would have could be tears and sleepless nights. I can tell you one thing, if something or someone is meant to be there would always be a way out of a miserable way of life. So have faith. Life is not so cruel…
I agree: If it’s meant to be then there will always be a way to that. But do you ever wonder why can’t we ‘choose’ if it’s meant to be for us or not? Why leave everything on destiny? That’s why we struggle to achieve what we want because we certainly cannot leave everything merely on destiny. Thus, this is how life becomes cruel and miserable but if we are alive muddling through the way and not giving up, then we do have a lot of faith apparently even if we think we are on the edge.
Sleepless nights can be the worst! I hate it when sleep betrays me too (lol)
Thank you for sharing your words with me. Your input is always appreciated, Dakshi ❤
Blessings and love,
-Naima
raw and beautiful!!
Thank you Saya.
I wish you a very good week ahead.
Kind Regards,
-Naima